Surfing the net, I came upon an article written by a palliative care nurse listing the top five regrets people reveal before they die. The most common regret was that folks wished that they had the courage to live the life they wanted and not the life that others expected them to live. The second one was that people wished they hadn’t worked so hard. The third was having the backbone to express their feelings, the fourth was staying in touch with friends and the last one was that people wished they had allowed themselves to be happier.
The first and second thoughts struck home to me. It made me think about how long I had been putting my dreams on hold because I was too busy working, paying bills and buying what I think I needed to make myself happy. It occurred to me how many times I had dreamt about writing and photography. I’ve actually dreamt that I was sitting at a table writing or I was back writing at a newspaper. I’ve dreamt of words scrawled across paper and notebooks full of stories.
Plenty of times I have dreamt of photographs. Usually they are black and white images of trees and landscapes. In my dreams I know that I have taken these photographs and I find them beautiful.
Strangely enough, I also dream of running. It’s not like I am running away, but running to something. I am happy and weightless. It feels like my feet hardly touch the ground.
Today, I started running. I ended up walking more than I ran, I wasn’t exactly weightless, but I wasn’t really heavy either. My feet were on the ground and I felt good when I reached my front door.
This fall I developed some health problems. Fortunately the issues were fixable, but it was a wakeup call. I cut down on work and changed my lifestyle. Consequently, I have more time to reflect on my dreams and think about where I want my life to go. I know one thing, there will always be a camera next to my notebook and pen. I am also going to keep running and find out where the “dream me” is running to.
(The above mentioned article was written by Bronnie Ware and she has some great books and words of wisdom on http://www.bronnieware.com.)